I used to say I didn't think I could live together with someone. The idea of being in a relationship and sharing a house, being together all the time, didn't seem very appealing. In fact, I used to be known for saying I didn't want anything alive in my apartment besides me, including other people, pets or flowers/plants. I used to say a lot of things...
It's interesting how things change or how different/new experiences in your life change your perception of them. Over the last few years there's sure been a number of those that changed not only how I see the (my) world, but they also changed me. Actually, I'm not quite sure I believe people really change. So perhaps it's not so much that I changed, but I just became more myself.
Sure, I'd been in love, but it usually was either complicated or resulted in a lot of drama. In sum, I thought my life was pretty good, until I met my gf and I realised everything that I'd been missing.
I know it's so corny to say, but I'm going to say it anyway; she changed my life completely. I never knew I could feel as much as I was feeling. I never knew I could love as much as I was loving. I never knew I could be as much and as many different things as I was being. I never knew I was lonely until I wasn't any longer. I never knew I was incomplete, until she completed me.
My former self never could've written that last paragraph. I would've rolled my eyes at it, and maybe even made some sarcastic comment. I don't really miss that person. I like being who I am these days, happy and positive and everything that comes with it. Being in love and in a relationship with Heidi has been such a wonderful experience that finding an apartment together was a logical next step.
We've only been living together for 2 months, but it's been wonderful.